mind games

Bear and i hope to meet next week, just quickly for a snatched meeting as he is driving past my junction on the motorway.

We will meet in public, as we often do, and will spend less than an hour in each others company, again, this is not uncommon. We take the opportunities to meet as and when they present themselves.

Often these snatched meetings are more intense than the planned meetings than can last most of the day, Often if Bear is working away we will snatch half an hour or maybe an hour before we have to part and go to work, and sometimes we will snatch half an hour or maybe an hour before we have to go home.

Bear has already begun to prepare me for a snatched visit, he always prepares me before our meetings, he likes to torment and tease me until i am desperate for sexual relief. He says it pleases him to do this, and to make my torment last for many days before we are together. He likes it because it means i am more compliant, and also because it means i am randy as hell when we meet.

The preparation for our snatched meeting has so far involved Bear whispering, or texting, what he plans to do to me during our meeting. Not nice things; things i do not like, but accept because he is Bear. He plans to torment my nipples, he will squeeze them and pinch them in the way i adore, then circle them softly until i cant bear it anymore. He plans to touch me in almost any way he can, which will not provide me any sexual relief. He will play round and round the boobies on one boob, then the other boob, then both together..... for 30 minutes ! thats possibly the whole of our meeting.

He has said he will send me to work desperate for an orgasm (it wont be the first time) and will spend the rest of the day texting me teases to keep me excited, and then meet me again on his way home and do it all again, then just as i cant hold off any more, he will stop and leave me unrelieved again.

Bear says these things because he knows i will think about them, play them through in my mind, i will anticipate them, expect them, begin to fantasise about them, he knows i will get nervous about them too, I never really know which of Bears teases and torments he will carry out. There is no way of knowing, no way of escaping.

What Bear decides on the day, is what will happen. I get nervous in case i am required to accept some of the things i dont like, i get nervous because i know that Bear can give me the most amazing orgasms, but also he can deny me them, and he will, and he does. I can be kept on the edge of orgasm for many many minutes and then have it taken away at the last second or be allowed to have to most incredible climax, i can be given a quick and unsatisfying orgasm, and then another and another and another until i physically can't cum any more, but i havent had the banging climax i wanted, or i can be given a long and lingering orgasm that leaves my pussy pulsing for ages afterwards. I am satisfied every time, but only in the way he wants me to be satisfied, and i never know wether i will be satisfied with an orgasm, or satisfied with the knowledge that pleasing him means no orgasm today.

Bear has a way of frustrating and annoying me that drives me wild. He does it on purpose and enjoys every second of it. This is also one of the ways he prepares me for a meeting. He will tell me the things he is going to do, or is thinking of doing.

There are 3 things i find incredible difficult or hate to do:

1. ask for things

2. making decisions

3. being spanked

and of course, those are the three things Bear likes best for me to do. Bear will put me in a position where i have to ask for things, he will put me in a position where i have to make decisions, and he will occasionally insist that i accept that i will be spanked ( although so far, my accepting that i will be spanked, and being placed into position has awarded me the relief of not having to be spanked - for Bear its all about me accepting it will happen, rather than the giving and recieving)

"i think we shall play a nice game of round and round the boobies" he will tease, knowing that it is possibly the most infuriating game in the world EVER.... and then he will drop in "unless you would like to as me to spank you instead"

My frustration is building already, i know there is an incredibly high possibility that he will present that scenario to me at our snatched meeting. It incorporates all my most hated things, making a decision, asking for something, and being spanked. I am in a lose, lose situation ! the only good thing about it, is being in this quandry, is pleasing Bear immensly...... He loves the mind games, and i it pleases him to play them with me .