Im so horny (again)

So, here we are again, or should i say here I am again!

Bear seems to have decided that i must remain horny for a while. To be honest it has been a while since we did anything kinky, or even remotely sexy, so to suddenly have someone paying my sexual needs some attention is very welcome, and very frustrating!

The problem is, that having had such a long sexual drought, my desires are awakened rather rapidly and i seem to have gone from not interested to horny slut in minutes.

Bear was talking to me, quite innocently about how he likes to play games, about how he wanted to frustrate me, and within a few sentences i was getting damp down there.

Bear allowed me the privilidge of pleasuring him last night, i was allowed to have him torment my nipples (i love that) and then i was permitted to masturbate him with my lips. I must have pleased him greatly because he orgasmed.

I find it incredibly thrilling to suck him from soft to hard, to draw my lips up and down his length and to circle his crown with my tongue. That in itself gives me enough pleasure that sometimes i can orgasm just from attending to his needs.

As for me... im not allowed to orgasm without permission, not allowed to masturbate without permission, so here i am, horny as hell, with Bear describing beautiful things to me, and insisting that i apply a tingly lubricant to my clit each night before i go to sleep. (all that does is excite me even more), i guess i should be grateful im not asked to apply tingle every time i wake up, like i was the other week !

I know we wont be seeing each other for a while, possibly weeks, i hope he allows me to masturbate soon, or do i? possibly not ! i can almost guarantee he wont let me have my release yet.

perhaps i should get one of those date things... to show how long since i was last allowed release, or how many days i had been tormented.

i must confess, i love feeling like this, sexually excited but knowing i cannot release the tension. knowing that it pleases him enormously to have me this way.

but i hate not knowing when it will end

looking forward to tomorrow

Tomorrow i am seeing Bear :)

It seems so long since i saw him, and so much has happened (well actually not much has happened, as previous blog entries have said).

I cant wait to see him, although in another way i am nervous about seeing him. I dont know why i get like this, but it always happens when i havent seem him for a while.

I worry that he might not want me anymore, might not want to control me anymore, might not find me attractive to him anymore. In my heart i know it isnt true, but my head plays games with me.

Tomorrow i know that he will show me his feelings, he will hold me close, tenderly hug me, empower me with his control, and leave me breathless and wanting more.

Tomorrow i will be given the honour of pleasuring him, of touching him intimately, of awakening his manhood and watching it become engorged as i please him with my compliance, my willingness and hopefully my tongue, my lips, my mouth.

I adore kneeling before him, watching his pleasure increase as i willingly obey, hearing his affirmation as i encourage his manhood to grow.

I wonder if Bear will reward my efforts? will i recieve the gift of his pleasure?